Wake up Vin - A self-realization
Inner voice (IV) - "Hey, what are you doing?"
Me - Nothing
IV - "Where are you heading?"
Me - Don't know!
IV - "Do you really deserve what you have got in life?"
Me - I guess so...
IV - "Do you feel that you are more worthy than the person you are now, and deserve more?"
Me - Maybe yes, maybe no, maybe @#$% @#$%&#$@ (see 'The Departed' movie to find out the encrypted words)
IV - "Stop your knack of escaping from reality, and think about your life"
Me - Yes, I will...
IV - "Will is future tense.... and how long do you use this word in your sentence"
Me - (no answer)
IV - "What do you want to do in life, what you want to become"
Me - To be honest, I had a better clarity about it sometime back (before 2yrs). But now... not sure... I know for sure that I don't want to do what I'm doing now
IV - "Good! I think your ambition and goals are really high, but I don't see your action towards achieving that"
Me - I know that, and I'm embarrassed about it. But first I want to get out of this comfort zone which I've created myself around. Living in Koramangala, Bangalore (the most happening place on Earth - for me) with my brother and sister-in-law, working at vicinity and taking dance classes at Nritarutya - people ask me what more you want.... but I'm institutionalized :( which is major a screw-up for me!
IV - "Hmmm, sounds a total disaster! But the choice is yours, you can work things what/how you want to do..."
Me - Yes, I need a change... not the materialistic change what people crave for. But the change which will put me into a not so familiar place and situation. I need this to re-define my priorities, to re-track my goals, to challenge myself (physically and mentally)... All I know is that I need a change!
IV - "Good that you finally too a courageous decision after a long time. Do you think this will work? Will it go good for you?"
Me - I know for sure that I will be much better in doing this. I would prefer to lose trying than to sit idle and wait for the disaster to come and hit me. I'm happy! Thanks for the provoking questions. I've decided to re-locate from Bangalore.
IV - "You sound much better now, and I know that you can make it. I was waiting for this moment of self realization... Wake up Vid!"
Me - People, here I come. Off from Bangalore, starting a journey of un-certainty but true and totally me (risk is like taking rusk, Courtesy - some Tamil movie)
IV - "All the best brother, I'm with you"
Me - Thanks! From now on, we need to do these discussions frequently, Vinoth calling Vinoth :)
I miss Bangalore... but I know that I can go back anytime there :)
I wrote this blog with the interest of sharing wisdom to all. I’m sure that at some point of time, everyone will go through this phase. And no one can help you - except you (so beware of this situation). Hope my learnings will help all who reads this blog.
Dedicated to Arun & Sanober (for invoking my passion for writing)
